Overwhelmed by the plethora of challenges life had thrown her way, young Miss Evelyn from Malaysia became fed up with her existence and almost threw in the towel in the battle of survival. Depression took over her spirit and built its destructive tent there. Often times, she would harbour suicidal thoughts, thinking that the sunny side of life would never come her way. She was definitely not to blame for all the terrible experiences as her family background was enmeshed in idol worship and thus hindered any meaningful communion with the Most High God.
Growing up under the tutelage of her parents, she joined them in serving and paying obeisance to strange gods which only caused more retrogression in the family. Ancestral spirits became the focal point of worship as they were offered incense and libations for the ‘liberation’ of the family. Young Evelyn, carried away with the fantasies of youth, enjoyed the ritualistic nature of her religious background without an inkling of the grave dangers they posed to her spiritual development. Her romance with idol worship was for better or for worse!
Growing up, she discovered that her aspirations in life were miles apart from the ruthless realities that stared her in the face. Of course, the consequence of that discovery resulted in frustration, loss of hope and depression which in turn gave birth to suicidal thoughts. In her reckoning, people never liked her. She felt she was socially rejected and concluded that there was nothing to live for. She struggled with that piteous mindset and at one time, almost jumped down from a twenty-storey building. Feelings of worthlessness, low self-esteem and failure took over her heart like weeds unyielding to the farmer’s cutlass.
Changing jobs due to an unexplained lack of satisfaction, her career almost became comatose. Her interpersonal relationship was a fundamental disaster. When it dawned on her that there was no easy way out of her dilemma and having been disappointed by her famous but powerless gods, she decided to explore superior options. Incidentally, she had become acquainted with The SCOAN many years prior and had even dreamt of receiving prophecy and deliverance from Prophet T.B. Joshua. Against all discouraging odds, Evelyn found her way to Nigeria to visit The SCOAN.
Penultimate Sunday, she attended the church service and had an interesting encounter with the Prophet of God. Walking up to her in the congregation, Prophet T.B. Joshua told her, “You have the spirit of suicide. You want to commit suicide. You have depression – serious depression. Three times, you attempted to commit suicide. Your family serves gods – strong gods”. Confirming the prophecy to be true, Evelyn received her deliverance in the mighty name of Jesus.
During her testimony, she revealed to the world how depression almost led her into taking her own life. She however regretted her actions and told the congregants that she no longer harbours suicidal thoughts as the Spirit of God has taken over her heart, filling her with inner peace and a sense of satisfaction. “Get used to challenges. God did not promise that we will not encounter challenges but He promised to see us through,” she reminded congregants and viewers all over the world.